My Choice

People have often asked me over the years how and why I do some of the things that I do.

How can I go back to the hospital where I have a lot of traumatic and challenging memories?

How can I listen to stories of other challenging pregnancies, infant or pregnancy loss situations, or neonatal intensive care experiences?

Aren't those triggers? Don't they pour salt into old ones? Or make it hard to move forward?

My argument for the past 5+ years has been that while all of that may be true… My personal journey has taught me that trying to make a difference and bring about positive change, even incrementally – is why I do the things that I do.

But it is exhausting. And comes with high burnout. Even taking a look at this blog… I've sat silent for the majority of the past year since initiating it, because the hustle and energy required to get from September to December and into every new year since my trauma journey, requires a TON of effort.

It's in my heart to give back. To make a difference for other Antepartum moms, Accreta sisters and NICU families. And I focus on that during these months. Do whatever I can to raise awareness, to tell and retell my story, to shed light on other women and families going through similar or related but unique situations. And to bring joy where I can through gifts, messages and donations.

So yes, I'm fatigued, but I will keep getting up and trying to do my best. So please give some grace on the delayed posts in this blog, and I pray and I hope that you will continue to follow along, continue to support during these upcoming peak months of my mission. And know that you too, are making a difference!

In hope,

D