Hope for the Holidays (2022)

“When I'm down, and I'm lost, and I'm tired. When it feels the whole world is on fire. Close my eyes and imagine a choir. Even when I feel like a mess. Have to take a good look inside me, yes.

In the hurts where I found the Holy, I guess. I'll never be perfect, but I try my best. To remember I'm blessed. Looking in the eyes of my children. Surrounded by the love I've been given. Don't wanna take a moment for granted. Sometimes it's so easy

To forget, to be grateful for the life I've been living. I'm learning to have faith in forgiving. Sometimes I lift my heart to the Heavens.

Just so I remember. That I'm blessed.” (Kelly Clarkson, Blessed)

Another year of remembering…reminding myself that I’m blessed. Even in the mess. Even on the hard days. The days where I’m tired and impatient. When I’m imperfect. When I’m just trying my best. I remind myself of where I came from. The storms I survived, with the help of MANY. To get here.

Six years since surviving #accreta. Six years since my #antepartum experience. Six years since I was hospitalized at the holidays. 5 years going back, every year since. To deliver these “Hope for the Holidays” holiday gift baskets. These care packages made it to Memorial today…to offer a little bit of light today to the moms in waiting. It took a village again this year. THANK YOU to my village, my people- far and wide! You helped me spread a little bit of cheer and hope to every local inpatient antepartum mother this year.

As always, you have my amazed gratitude! In hope + light. 💜